Ich danke Ihnen, meine Liebe

So.... How are you?

It's only just yesterday we talked, but i feel like it's been forever. The more we talk, i missed you the more. The more i feel guilty too. The more i want to hit myself because of my own stupidity. 

I, myself, can't thank you more, that you still stood by my side. Even when i push you hard. Thank you. No, seriously, thank you, so much. 

I, myself, never felt so afraid before. And now i am.

Afraid, that i have thrown my biggest fortune to the bottom of the cliff. Not realizing how much it costs. Not realizing that it is priceless. You.

So,

I, myself. Tried to go down the cliff, brought everything i capable of, to find my biggest fortune back. Try to shout your name as loud as possible, try to bear all the coldness down the cliff of desperation, and hoping, to hear my name called by the familiar voice again. The voice that i want to hear all the time, the voice that once loved me, that i hope it's never changed. And will never changed.

I know i bored you with this two words.

I'm sorry.

I never meant to hurt you, never meant to let you down. Never meant to make you feel sad. So, i, myself. My deepest apologize. 

I'll try better

I wanna be the one that wipe your tears off, wipe out all my mistakes, and fill it full with things that shows smiles on your lovely face. I wanna be the one who you always came back for. I wanna be your home where you can always rest your head on me. 

As the end of the word, i, myself, want to say, terima kasih untuk semuanya, makasih masih sama aku. Aku sayang kamu, nd.